I woke up with my cheek on a stone floor. The
rain had already washed away the thin layer of snow that fell the day before.
We had been waiting for over a month for that first snowfall and it was already
gone with one quick flush. It fell so gently, so slowly, so hesitantly. As if
afraid of being rejected. I had plans to take a long walk watching it lay to
rest on top of fields and treetops. Once I stepped out the door however, I
realized I wouldn’t get far at all. I just stood there overwhelmed by the serenity
of the scenery. As I got to the end of the picturesque little street, I was
already done for.
For as long as I could withstand the cold I
stood there and let the snow fall on me as it did on the rooftops around me. In
the lamplight it was even prettier. All those sounds you can hear only when you
listen carefully, slowly sidled out of the grey mass of noise like shy little
animals. You just have to stay still and patiently wait. I opened my mouth and
stretched out my tongue.
The light fog that hovered over the cold
stones tasted just like the snow that fell that night. I wondered how many days
it had been. I had promised myself I wouldn’t leave until I found a good reason
not to stay.
I cant say why that tower had captured me.
Something had happed when I ran my fingers across the surface of the outside
wall. Once they hit wood it was over. I knew I couldn’t just walk away. So I opened
the door and stepped in. When I got back home I was 5 kilos lighter and nobody
had missed me. This was the life I lived then. This was the life I lived after
last time we met.